December 9, 2013

Brian 'Head' Welch - Testimony

he  was suicidal ...  heavily abused drugs, and lived...then  Jesus somehow came into his awareness ...... he called, cried out to him ... found out HE is REAL ... ####...
anyone w/ any addiction ... u CAN be free ... i (writer of this blog) ALSO am free of  heavy alcohol abuse/addiction, cigarettes, pot, some coke (cocaine), cutting, a lot of promiscuous sex, violence, fights, hitchhiking, lifelong sex addiction (pornography -  still have some times of this problem, but not as bad as before), vandalism, violence, abortion, verbal abuse, rapes, lying, stealing, self-hatred, thoughts of suicide, severe anxiety, panic attacks (sent me to the hospital emergency room),etc ... i was a mess ... i am alot better now/but not totally healed /still, a work-in-progress ... clean, sober, celibate (haha), more calm, able to survive better without cutting/drinking/getting high/ fighting / lying / stealing/ letting men use me/beat me/etc/etc/etc .... but i still get *flashbacks* now and then,{post traumatic stress disorder and social anxiety}, ...  and i still have my *down* times ... and i still need deliverance /emotional healing /freedom from lusts/anger/memories/ etc .... but i have HOPE now .... i have struggled my whole life w/hauntings/fear/terror/porno/abuse/violence/poor self-image/ dysfunctional family/ occult/ spirits/ etc ...... but JESUS/holy ghost! definitely changed my life ... I FELT HIS SPIRIT, like liquid electricity ... AWESOME, i can never forget it, and i will NEVER BE THE SAME

Red - Not Alone (with lyrics)

NEEDTOBREATHE - Something Beautiful

BarlowGirl - Never Alone (Official Video)

i needed you today, so where did you go

Believe - Mainstay

even in my darkest hour, i will believe

He's My Son By: Mark Schultz

a tearjerker/makes me cry

Pull Me Out by Bebo Norman

pull me out of the waters/set my feet upon the solid Rock

Bebo Norman - Great Light Of The World

To Bring You Back By Paul Alan

you may be the >>ONE<< He is looking for

THOUGHTS " the silence speaks"

i heard it/ the wind/it was starting to gather strength/like it did many nights/i listened/was anxious/then it stopped/i felt it was just outside my wall/it was out there/now gaining it's power again/it was speaking, talking/i went out to feel/i didn't have to say anything/the presence was enough/we were as one/hearts in tune/i was talking/in another language/nobody else could hear

Little Drummer Boy by Jars of Clay

love the end of this one

Twila Paris - Every Heart that is Breaking - Lyrics on screen

for the son without a father, for his solitary mother

song~ "Leader of the Broken Hearts" - Papa Roach

 And now I finally know what it feels like
To risk everything and still survive
When you're standing on the battlefield
And all the pain is real
That's when you realize
That you must have done something right
Cause you've never felt so ALIVE

MESSAGE "Leader of the Broken Hearts"

Day 4
{Message from a series called "8 Days of Hope"}

"Wait on the Lord:  be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart:  wait, I say, on the Lord."


"Nothing prepares you for a broken heart.  It is the most miserable of pains, and most difficult to mend.  A wounded heart is nearly impossible to bear.  Emotional distress caused by loss and rejection is powerfully destructive and damaging.

I know heartbreak.  I know deep rejection.  I know sorrow.  I know pain.  I know (the) emptiness. I know loneliness.

Beyond the pain, there is hope.  There is joy.  There is a new day.  There is new life.  There is a new start.

 I came to heal the brokenhearted.

I heal (the) wounded hearts and emotions.  I will do a brand new thing.  You have this promise from Me.

Look for the light (that) I bring to your darkness.  It may be just a glimmer at first ... but then, the sun will shine gloriously upon you.

You will begin to sense My deep care, concern, and abiding love for you.  You will feel My love.

You will belong to Me.

You do belong to Me."



Isaiah 53:3    "He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid  - as it were  - our faces from Him; He was despised, and we esteemed Him not."

St. Mark 14:50   "And they all forsook Him, and fled."

in Him was life

in Him was life