January 30, 2016

"Scared To Die"

Are you afraid to die?

***Death....what is it? Is it the end? the end of everything? Will you go on? Will you go to Heaven? To hell? To nothingness? To a black void? To Paradise? Where will you be? WHEN YOU BREATHE YOUR FINAL BREATH, THEN WHAT??? When your heart beats for the last time, then what will happen?

*** Do you care? Do you wonder? Do you try to find out?

*** Many say they do not care..."Whatever will be, will be" they claim. Most people think they will be in some kind of Heaven. They have a vague view of somewhere *up there*. They joke about the *man upstairs* and say (that) they are *good* enough to get into heaven. Some others laugh about the wild party they will be at, in hell. They know they are not *angels* and boast about their *sins* and *partying*. But, what is the truth in all this? Can we humans actually know for sure about death...about the after-life?

********All the world's religions have their ideas about heaven and hell. They are all different. Can they all be correct? Can anyone know? How could they? Death comes to all of us, in one way or another. We should think about it, shouldn't we? If possible, we should prepare for our life after death, *IF* there is one, right?

***So does our spirit continue after we die? Do we keep living, on some other plane of existance? in another dimension? in a heavenly place? So where is heaven? WHERE WILL WE GO WHEN WE DIE??

***And where is the *other place*...hell ( hades)? A *limbo* for the soul?And, if hell is real, how can it be? How could a God make a place of eternal punishment...of fire, of worms and maggots, of teeth-gnashing and of pain? Is that mercy? Or is it justice for the most evil, wicked, cruel, and depraved?

********Coming from a *Judeo-Christian-Biblical* viewpoint, both Heaven and hell exist. How to get there is different in the old and new parts of the Bible. In the Old Testament, the Jewish Torah, the way to appease God is by animal/blood sacrifice, and by strict keeping of the law...the commandments of God.

*** JESUS GIVES US NEW LIFE BY HIS HOLY SPIRIT>The New Testament speaks of Jesus, or God in the flesh, coming as a human sacrifice for the world. He has died as a sacrifice to atone for all our sins...for all mankind.

He was Jewish and He fulfilled all the Old Testament prophecies about Him.He is the promised Messiah. Messiah = Anointed One. Yeshua.
Many Jewish people are now believing. It is exciting, although controversial.
This is all a plan of God, which many do not understand, yet many still say they believe.

You. Are. Loved.

>>>>You are welcome here .... If you feel ALONE, LONELY.... If you have doubts, questions, fears, worries, are an atheist, an unbeliever, a harsh skeptic, agnostic, confused big-time, are jaded, are filthy rich, are famous, a celebrity, an unknown 'nobody', anonymous, invisible, wretched, are bored-to-death, are 'sick -of-it', bitter, cold, numb, feel dead, blind, near-death, terminally ill, handicapped, high- strung, wheelchair-bound, paralyzed, HIV-AIDS victim, feel lonely, alone, forgotten, rejected, in terror, misunderstood, addicted, drunk, stoned, high, low, mocked, warped, twisted, injured, maimed, humiliated, burnt, burned-out, suicidal, 'psychotic', in the dark, depressed, 'disfigured', a 'freak', a 'weirdo', a 'monster', 'ugly' (feel this way), diseased, chronically sick and in pain, nervous, sick, dying, abused, anorexic, bulimic, obese, 'fat', rejected, starving, desperate, in debt, psychic, schizophrenic, magician, spiritist, medium, proud, arrogant, vain, channeller, satanist, witch, sorcerer, diviner, seer, prophet, one with 'second sight', a 'listener', a 'watcher', a dream interpreter,


bipolar, autistic, are a punk/goth/rebel, reclusive, a cutter, bullied, depressed, eccentric, artistic, "shunned" by churches, weak, worn-out, tired, totally exhausted, living as an outcast, a 'loner', anxious, neglected, ignored, left out, isolated, poor, homeless, hopeless, has post traumatic stress, veteran, soldiers, in jail, in the hospital, angry, gay, straight, non-sexual, bisexual, tortured, transgender, asexual, celibate, abstinent, sex addict, enraged, sarcastic, full of hate, a 'hopeless' sinner, a self-hater, in despair, an alien, a stranger, lost, possessed, multiple personality disorder, autistic, asperger's, mentally disabled, desperate, out-of-control, feel insane, etc; .... YOU are at Home here .... I (and others) accept you as you are, since GOD / Jesus / Holy Spirit / Messiah / Yeshua /Saviour / *my Friend* ... has accepted me (and millions of other lonely lost souls) over and over, no matter how bad I get! He still loves ME...and He also loves YOU !!!!!!!!

First Words I Heard

When I first began to know that:

1) Jesus is real,
2) His Spirit can be actually felt, and that; 3) I had actually felt His love ...{and realized the stunning reality}.... I still had no idea we could also sometimes "hear" His voice somehow.

So...years later....after I had been "baptized" in His Spirit...(and also water baptized)...I began to try it out....listening.

I shut myself into my bedroom, alone, in the quietness.
To be extra sure I didn't hear any outside disturbances, I plugged my ears with my fingers and shut my eyes really tight....to concentrate.

I waited a little while.
Then...I heard something! I heard "someone"... I heard an actual sentence in my mind-spirit.

Here is the very first sentence I ever heard:

>>>>"My sheep know My voice, and where I am, they will follow." <<<<


I looked it up and it was a scripture from the Bible.

This was awesome!!
Our pastor had us read them out loud, if we had actually "heard" anything after praying.
I read mine out loud in front of everyone.
I was nervous, but didn't care.

I doubt anyone cared what I had heard ... but I sure did!

From then on, it has happened many, many hundreds (?) of times.
I have tried to record 99% of all I have ever heard. (Sometimes I am too exhausted to listen.)

MESSAGE "Feels the Wounds"

{I 'heard':  "You have neglected the physical."}


"You have neglected the physical.  Yes, you have developed the spiritual, even the mental;  but not the physical.

Attend to the needs of the body.  Change your ways.  Nourish your heart.  Flex your muscles.  *Air out* your lungs.  Detox if necessary.  I will help you to do this.

Do not worry.  Do not worry. Do not worry.

Rid your soul of anxious thoughts and burdensome heaviness.  Be free of yokes, entanglements and hindrances. {As much as you are able...as much as is under your control and within decisionary limits.}


I will help you with the *unfixable* (things).  The *impossible* and the *improbable*.

I am the master of solutions.   I find ways to work things out.  I shall help you and all who call upon Me.

I am near to the brokenhearted, the sick and dying, the frail, the weak, the rejected, the prisoner.

I feel the wounds of the soldier.  I weep for all the fallen heroes.

Yes, my eyes are wet with tears.  I see the intense, grueling pain so many have endured.

I see the result(s) of sin.  Of war.  Of selfish ambition.  Of controlling forces.

I see and I hear. I see the hurts of My wounded.

I am with you, (oh) wounded and weary warrior. I willl heal your heart, your shattered persona, your twisted limbs, your broken dreams.  I will restore.  I will heal.  I will have My way in the earth.

 I am sending My power and My Spirit.


Prepare the way(s) for MY SPIRIT! How? you ask.

By humility.

By praying simply to Me.

By fasting as I enable ...  and (as) you seek to obey/serve Me.

I see those in desperation;  in desperate situation(s).

I see those without hope .... without emotion .... without faith.  I see the dark clouds over you.  I see the darkness of the enemy.

I see the forces (that are) arrayed against you.  (For you ARE in a battle:  it is a REAL (spirit world) struggle.)


So, cast (give over) your cares to Me.  Let Me into your world.  Let Me be part of your life equation.

I will perfect (complete, bring to fruition) those things that concern and worry you.  I will be a *bridge builder*.

There is a time for doctors and a time for (the) supernatural.  My times will be (fully) apparent:  will be well-known.

I shall have the last word."

####### message ended @ 6:30am/ ~~~from message heard 11/3/2008 @ 6:16am

MESSAGE "Anointing of Love"

"Come to Me, all you who labor ... and I will give you rest.  Take My yoke upon you, for My yoke is easy and My ways are not grievous.  
( His commandments are not hard, compared to the devil's yoke of bondage.) -- from Matthew 11:28 -30


"Cast all your cares on (upon) Me, for I care for you.

No greater love has any man, except a man lay down His life for His friends.  I no longer call you servants, but My friends.  I speak to you as My friends.  We fellowship together in worship, in prayer, and in silence. I am your friend.

A friend loves at all times.  A friend warns you of impending danger.  A friend tells you the truth.  A friend is merciful and kind, full of compassion, and also of grace.
A friend forgives:  not just once, but over and over again.

As long as sins and offenses come, there will be a need for forgiveness ... constant forgiveness.  As I have forgiven you, and CONTINUE to forgive you, so you must (also) do the same.
You must endeavor (try) to walk (live) in love.


Love must rule your lives.  (If you haven't found My love, continue asking ... for the one who seeks love will find love.)  If you need love, ask Me.
If you don't feel loved, ask Me.  (I am in the *business of love* !)
I will show you love.  (For some of you, this is a new experience.)

My love is NOT what the world talks (speaks) of.  My love is not of this earth:  it is from above.  It is a pure love, an undefiled love ... a real love and a deep love.
(Love of another kind.)

The love I give will not go away.  My love is forever.  As you sense and experience My love, your trust (and subsequent faith and works of faith) will grow and blossom.

Faith works by love.  My works (of faith) must be done in love.  You will love Me, for I first will love you. (I love you now, but many do not know this, or really receive it.)


There is an outpouring of My love, given by the Holy Spirit to you, which is increasing.  It is flowing fresh and forcefully from My throne.
  (An anointing of love.)

My Spirit delivers My love to you.  The love of Jesus Christ, the love of the Father, and the love of the (Holy) Spirit are yours.  Be ready to receive.  Love never fails.  Amen."

########from a message heard on 4/3/2000 @11pm

(Note: When I retyped this, on 9/20/2004, I felt the Holy Spirit 'rest' upon me ... )

Redlight King - Something For The Pain

All Around Me - Flyleaf (Lyrics)

How He Loves - John Mark McMillan - Legendado

Lecrae - Messengers ft. for KING & COUNTRY (@Lecrae @ReachRecords)

Lecrae - TELL THE WORLD Feat. Mali Music (@lecrae @reachrecords)

Dirty Heads - End of the World (Lyric Video)

The Chevin - Champion (Official Video)

>time for a new start for me

>>whatever has not killed me yet will make me so much stronger~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

in Him was life

in Him was life